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@jjayda : Hi, I’m Jayda. A few months ago I met someone who I looked up to back in high school, and a few weeks ago, I got to shoot with him and be a part of a huge milestone in his career (#ytfb). Admittedly, I put this off for a solid couple of weeks - even though this had nothing to do about me - just because I didn’t think I looked good, was too fat, and so the list goes on. Did I look that way? Maybe. Was I at my worst? Maybe. But did I eventually go through with it? Yes, and I am so incredibly glad I did. Contrary to what I thought and what was going on in my head, there were so many lovely pictures captured that day... but my favorite part was the deep, life-motivating, storytelling type of conversation just between two pals trying to l i v e. As one of my dear friends recently reminded me, “if we wait until we are ready, we will be waiting the rest of our lives.” This resonated with me after feeling a personal absolute low since the beginning of this year. Gradually crawling myself out of a dark hole I have created for myself, I tried to get distracted - going to Europe, or even my recent trip to Thailand (again, the same daunting feelings of poor body image and self-talk clouded my mind, and whether or not those physical aspects were true or not... I still went. I got out there.) Andddd that is the point of this rant. We all need to keep moving, realizing not only are we not alone, but that we also need others for help too (no matter how stubborn we are *coughcoughme). Perhaps as for social media, I just want to be more transparent - show my odd, goofy self - and maybe that openness will be in it of itself a sort of self-healing, if you will. On that noteee, just thought I’d put something out there that I have personally been dealing with for quite some time. I truly hope that others find comfort in this too. Most certainly not seeking pity one bit. Comment a 🖤 if you’ve even read this far - that is more than enough for me. Xx ... 📸 | @bryant
